…10 Things We Learned at Volusia PPD – 2010 Edition…

1) if you’re feeling a bit under the weather, and some nice men and women from  EVAC offer you a ride, go with it, because really, how often do we get chauffeured around town these days?

2) demanding the gods remove the rain-clouds may seem like a good idea at first but keep in mind they are the only thing between you and the sun…

3) only at volusia county ppd does it require two rolls of packing tape and a bag of two dozen balloons to result in four frickin’ balloons taped to a couple of signs that nobody really saw any way.

4) european elder is a glorious, tall, sacred tree.  american elder is a small, poisonous shrub… did they just run out of names when they crossed the ocean, or is there a political message somewhere in that?

5) no, i don’t care what candle corresponds with what element, just light them all, dammit, and let the  gods figure it out later.

6) realizing that this is florida, and our event is held outdoors on a grassy area, perhaps sensible footwear is in order?  there’s an easy mathematical formula for figuring this out… ” (Barefoot/Sandals)*Exposed Foot-Flesh = FIRE  ANT LUNCH. ”

7) i know we had planned for chocolate wine and four varieties of pudding for our cakes and ale ceremony, so how did we end up with blue sugar-juice and plain ‘nilla wafers?!

8) if you’re manning the grill, make sure you actually have something on it when you notice the video camera panning toward you.  flipping air-burgers may seem like a good idea, but the camera tends to pick up those little details…

9) try not to inhale a bug when you’re taking a deep breath in for a chakra chant… it throws off your energy somewhat.

10) just because it says ‘easy-up tent’ on the side, doesn’t necessarily mean its ‘easy-DOWN’ too.  especially when you need a screwdriver bit, a hammer, and a blood-pact with satan to push the damn buttons in.

and a bonus…

11) we underestimated just how dangerous the ketchup and relish situation was, so next year we will be developing a two-hour, online certification program for proper condiment usage.  under no circumstances will anyone who does not successfully complete this course be allowed anywhere near the slap-chop.

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…The Elusive Balance – Part II…

a few weeks back, i wrote about the elusive balance and how it relates to the lightness/darkness polarity within pagan practice.  the problem with using light and dark as a metaphor for moral behavior is that it doesn’t quite give any concrete guideposts or criteria for what we aught to do vs. what we aught not to do.  there really is no way to determine, based on this polarity alone, what constitutes action that is ‘too lights’ or ‘too dark’.  the whole notion of lightness and darkness of action is too nebulous to be useful.  i have yet to find a terminology that i feel does any justice to the subject of ethical analysis (especially when it comes to magick). white/black is no good. good/evil is also out. dark/light is only marginally better. currently, i’m thinking in somewhat more mathematical terms with additive/subtractive, but i dislike the ‘clinical-ness’ of those words.

many pagan practices, while still employing lightness and darkness as descriptive terminology, have moved past this polarity and seek to base their moral outlook on something more unambiguous and quantifiable.  since it is difficult for typical human beings to measure and observe karmic interaction (none of us are buddhas…)  we need to look at the directly observable effects of our actions – the most visible being the ‘harm’ that results from them.

on the additive side, how far is person x willing to go to achieve their own goals, and how willing / to what degree will person x sacrifice person y’s goals in order to achieve their own. but on the subtractive side, to what degree will person x sacrifice their own goals in order to achieve person y’s. and when conflict occurs, at what point does the balance between sacrifice and achievement tip the moral scale, so to speak.

for now, all that is still a jumble of words floating around my head at the moment. but going back to the dark/light model, the important question is ‘uninfluenced by any other factors, how much potential harm are you willing to do to others in order to get what you want?’ – regardless of whether you actually act on that potential or not. the risk-tolerance toward others is what delineates dark from light in my mind.   and perhaps to a lesser degree, the willingness to either observe or abandon the norms of social etiquette.  within any magickal practice, you’re going to have both light and dark elements, so it is more useful to look for overlapping trends, as opposed to mutually exclusive dualistic extremes.  going back to the dark/light model, the farther from observing social etiquette your practice takes you the ‘darker’ your practice will be perceived by those observing it. go into a public park and ritually sacrifice a cat… vs. go into a public park and pray. its totally subjective based upon the beliefs of the observer, hence its of lesser importance – yet part of being ‘light’ or ‘dark’ is how one’s actions measure up to the standards of those who are judging them; so there must be some correlation between the action and how the action is perceived.

so how does all of this factor into paganism and what we ‘do’ as pagans?  well, on the wiccan side of things there’s that pesky little thing known as the rede that seems to cause quite a bit of controversy… often maligned, misunderstood, and usually taken completely out of context (by wiccans and non-wiccans alike…)  i’ll be taking a closer look at it in an upcoming post.

as always, comments and scathing criticism welcome.
-justin

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…Of Circles and Watchtowers – Part I…

most forms of paganism involve some aspect of circlecraft, whether it be for personal spellwork or for ritual use.   one of the most common elements of circlecraft is acknowledging and working with cartesian compass directions that usually have elemental correspondences.  we divide our circle into quarters, corners, and quadrangles and associate qualities and energies with them.  but how does each ‘quarter’ relate to its supposed element?  and why do we place spiritual entities (that may or may not have anything to do with elemental qualities) within these quarters?   superficially, this doesn’t make much sense… these divisions seem to have little relation to the geometry of a physical circle and would be relative to (not to mention subject to change by) the position of the practitioner. but spiritually, there is a deeper purpose to such an organizational schema – and its origins lie in the ceremonial western mystery tradition.

in the physical realm, we can generally figure out which direction is which by knowing our position relative to the earth, but we can’t really pinpoint the boundaries of the three dimensional space that make up ‘east’, for example.   euclidean geometry is incapable of taking the third dimension into account which is problematic since we all live on a giant, fully 3D oblate spheroid known as the earth.  and even though our ‘circles’ tend to be visualized as 2D geometric shapes, we’re still using language and terminology that applies to rectangles and squares, rather then the somewhat more mathematically complex terminology that would apply to curving bodies.

if we look at it more from a spiritual perspective, however,  it begins to make a little more sense.  the nature of reality of the spiritual realm is much different then that of the physical realm – on the field of potential phenomena (the ‘emptiness’ that embodies all reality – physical, mental, spiritual, transcendent, and beyond) the causes and conditions that give rise to the very rigid and deterministic natural laws that govern the physical realm are  different then those that give rise to spiritual realm.  consequently, different ‘models’ of reality can arise and dissolve simultaneously within the spiritual realm, where only one object can reside in a particular point in spacetime within the physical realm.  this allows for our mental consciousness to conceptualize spiritual reality in multiple ways at the same time.  our ‘circles’ can can also be ‘spheres’, and yet can also have points, and corners, and quarters as if they were rectangles all at the same time.  the effect of this seemingly spiritual chaos is that back on the physical plane, even though we don’t know where exactly ‘east’ ends and ‘south’ begins, we will have general regions whose energetic effects match our intentions and can produce real work within the circle.

but before we figure out what element goes where and why, i think its important to look at why we call elemental energy into our circle to begin with.  what is the point of having earth, air, fire, and water energy within our circle?  we’ve already got our physical reminders of the elements, so isn’t that enough?  short answer is no.  there are actually two reasons why we call in elemental energy into our circle.  the first reason is practical – all things have a mixture of spiritual energies, physical manifestations, mental consciousness, and divine qualities that make up their inherent natures in differing proportions.  the more ‘physical’ a thing is, the lower its vibratory rate.  vibratory rate increases as it becomes more mental – then spiritual – and finally, divine.  with a higher vibratory rate, things become progressively more pure until, ultimately, at the apex of creation, a thing is completely divine, and therefore completely pure.  defilement, on the other hand, tends to spread from the more impure to the less impure, but something remarkable happens between the divide of ‘mental’ and ‘spiritual’ vibratory rates.  the nature of defilement is lower-order energy; it comes in the physical and mental varieties.  but when defilement encounters spiritual energy, the higher-order nature (more specifically, the higher-order methods) of that spiritual energy acts to transform the defilement into a higher-order manifestation of its natural self – thereby purifying the defilement into an undefiled state.  this purifying and transformative effect is a natural quality of spiritual energy.

so how does this relate to the circle?  when we call in elemental energy, we are really calling in the essence of each element.  that essence is the spiritual expression of the element, anchored to the circle by the physical manifestation of the element within (for example, we ‘call in’ the spiritual essence of fire which can manifest in the physical realm because we have actual, physical fire somewhere within the circle).  that spiritual essence of fire embodies all of the purifying qualities of physical fire, but in more concentrated, higher-order form.  because it is spiritual energy, when it encounters defilement (that would be us…) it acts to purify what is defiled into its non-defiled state.  so each of the ‘spiritual’ elements purifies the circle and its inhabitants by raising the vibratory rates of everything within the circle.

the second purpose of quarter calling is devotional in nature.  usually, calling in elemental energy is a prelude to calling in divine energy.  when we work with the gods in circle, we are inviting them into a temple outside of spacetime.  just as with guests in our home, we want to make the temple as inviting, pure, clean, and filled with the things they like as we possibly can.  it is an act of worship to strive to emulate the creative works of the gods – and by presenting the gods with the spiritual ‘building blocks’ from which they themselves created the universe, we are emulating the desire to create in their image; we are presenting the gods the ‘work of their hand’ as it were.  ultimately, quarter calling is an offering to god.

next part is going to look at where we put each element within the circle, and why we do it that way.  any questions or thoughts, leave a comment.

-justin

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…Self-Determination and Co-Creation…

one of the biggest concerns within the eclectic community is the idea that when it comes to our expressions of god, we’re just ‘making it all up’, or even worse, ‘stealing it’ from some other culture without any regard or sensitivity to the context from which those expressions come. the subtext to this argument is that our visions of god and our practices are somehow invalid or wrong because of their newness or their alleged ‘theft’. the question becomes, can any one individual or culture or nation or religion claim a sort of copyright on religious beliefs about god? can rituals and practices and prayers be trademarked?

i believe that the one quality which members of all religions and cultures share is our humanness; and that humanness secures us the right to experience and express our relationship with god in whatever way we determine is best for ourselves – even if the experience is similar to the experience from another culture or religious framework. i believe we have the right to adopt practices and beliefs that work for us, and to reject those that do not, regardless of the time period or tradition from which they originate. i believe we have the right to wear or discard the labels of our choosing, or to refuse to label ourselves or accept the labels imposed by others if that is our choice. ultimately, i believe in religious self-determinism… that we are beholden to no one but ourselves and our gods in developing our spiritual relationships.

but with this level of freedom comes a measure of responsibility. we must work very hard to maintain honesty and integrity within our practice. when we lay claim to a heritage that is not ours, or change elements of established traditions, we must have the fortitude to acknowledge that fact – even if it means that we will be criticized for those choices. just as we have the right to judge the practices and beliefs of others for possible inclusion in our own world-views, other people have the right to judge our actions and words in light of their world-views… and we must accept the fact that those judgments will not always be positive.

and we must be very careful not to misrepresent what we do in our practice as one and the same with the legitimate practices of another group, unless they actually are one and the same.  for example, there is nothing wrong with our practices being ‘inspired by native american shamanistic techniques’ but there is something very wrong with laying claim to practicing authentic native american shamanism if we are not native american (either by birth or by adoption).  there is nothing wrong with our version of eclectic wicca being ‘based on the published material of alexandrian wicca’, but there is something very wrong with claiming that our eclectic wicca is alexandrian wicca if we ourselves are not  alexandrian initiates.  with the freedom of religious self-determination comes the obligation to be scrupulously honest in regards to where our practices and beliefs come from.

but adapting beliefs and practices of others is only one way in which we flesh out our spiritual experience.  we also have the right to create our own expressions of god, and this process is one of direct divine inspiration into our personal lives.

we co-create because that is how godhead expresses itself through us – we create our gods the way our gods wish us to create them. painters paint. sculptors sculpt. desire and talent are gifts. our nature is to use them. reality is shaped by natural law, of which rules and limitations are a part – and we are all bound by such law, whether we acknowledge it or not. faith matters, but trappings are just that… traps. god comes to us, because god is us. but we aren’t the entirety of god, and we are subject to maya and limitations – so there is confusion, and ambiguity, and doubt. this results in searching which leads us back to creation.

i created god once. he is all the potential of mankind that hasn’t been tapped into yet. i named him Orion, after the constellation – because i like to stand under the stars and reach up to heaven while thinking of all the things i aspire to be. right here and now, he matters because *i* matter. but people have been standing under the stars reaching up for as long as there have been people and stars. if it wasn’t me then it would be somebody else; maybe someone a thousand years ago. so everything ‘new’ is ‘old’ again.

-justin

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…What the Hell…

generally, i think that the ultimate end-game is the same for everyone. you know (cue scary music)… the ‘END GAME’… but neither death, nor the post-death experience, is that end-game. can people go to heaven? sure, if the factors and conditions for going to heaven are all present and accounted for. can people be reborn in the human realm for another shot at it? of course – if they desire. is going to hell (fiery or otherwise) an option? you bet. suffering builds character, as the saying goes. or rather, suffering gives the opportunity to accumulate merit.

in terms of suffering, though, i do not believe that there is a physical place of fire and brimstone presided over by the very worst that creation has to offer. but, i do believe that because of circumstance and personal choices, many spirits find their way to that experience.

is it all in the mind? yes. but only insofar as everything is all in the mind. and is suffering limited to the stereotypical ‘hell’ that our culture seems so hung up on? i’d have to say no. my fear of hell is boredom… i’ll cut-n-paste my own dante moment below.

but the thing is, hell is impermanent. the conditions that cause the experience burn off eventually (karma is fire) and new conditions flow in (karma is water). and the only constant between hells (whatever flavor one is ‘enjoying’ at the moment) is the illusion that we don’t have the ability to say ‘i’ve had enough. this ends now.’

its funny, though… the same could be said of heaven. a rest in the summerland, or a romp with the angels, or sitting at the feet of an enlightened being; it pauses your spiritual growth (albeit pleasantly), so it too can only be temporary. eventually you have to ‘get back to work’.

so neither heaven, nor hell, nor rebirth is eternal because even the longest lasting cycles have to ‘cycle round’ eventually. and when, finally, at long last we come to the collective decision to stop playing, then the cycle of cycles ends. and presumably a new game begins.

shades of boredom

the shades of boredom (of which there are five) are monochromatically grey. if you were to line them up, one next to another, you would just barely be able to make out a subtle difference in gradation between the first and the last. the leftmost tastes of ash, when you stand too close to a fire and the wind blows in your face. next is the fleeting memory that your conciousness just can’t quite hold onto; it is the malevolent rebellion of the part of your mind that wishes you harm. in the center are three voices, so achingly close to harmony that to listen would bring madness. rightward is the dream of a path, where the scenery never changes and the destination is never reached. and the farthest shade is overwhelming disappointment; knowing that same action brings same result, but being unwilling to break the cycle.

and then you move on. or you don’t. – world keeps spinning either way

-justin

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